Ten True Things

It's becoming so rare for me to turn up in this space at all these past few years that right now, I just want to make a list. Something simple.

Ten true things:

1) I turn 39 this week.

2) I've been a librarian again for almost a year.

3) I've been feeling very distant from God lately, and yearn to grow closer.

4) We've packed up our wagon and have set out for the wilds of another Diocese.

5) Church shopping is some lonely and painful stuff.

6) However, it's more lonely to keep trying to gel at a church where it's just not happening. So I'm going to consider this the work of the Holy Spirit and continue, among other things, noting the qaulity of the signage at all these places (or lack thereof)...noting the number of times I'm urged to just show up and speak to so-and-so about this, that, or the other thing without any further instruction about who they are, how to find them, and sometimes even what the thing is...judging the merits of different types of communion bread (the heavier and sweeter the better)...noticing if my squirrelly son is received warmly, or with cool disdain...and holding back tears when things like the hymns and prayers are the closest friends I've got as a stranger in the pews.

7) I am very, very torn about what life is like with two full-time working parents. More tears, to be quite frank about it. This might be the year I spent crying.

8) The kids are lovely and thriving and great. I'm blessed with a loving husband. Much is going well, and worth celebrating.

9) Like being about to turn 39.

10) And praying that we'll all find a soft place to land.